AND SHE WAS GONE

She chose to walk alone
     Though others wonder why
Refused to look before her
     Kept eyes cast towards the sky...

She didnt have companions
    No need for earthly things
She only wanted freedom
    From what she felt like puppet strings...

She longed to be a bird
    That she might fly away
She pitied every blade of grass
    For planted it would stay...

She longed to be a plane
    That brightly danced alone
Felt jealous of the steam
     That made the air its only home...

Some say she wished too hard
    Some say she wished too long
But we awoke one autumn day
     To find that she was gone...

The trees,they say, stood witness
     The sky refused to tell
But someone who had seen it
     Said the story went out well...

She spread her arms out wide
     Breathe in at the break of dawn
She just let go of all she held
     'Till she was... gone...

MONEY CAN'T BUY YOU HAPPINESS... actually gasgas na nga ito eh...dati-rati pag may nagsasabi sa akin nito di ko pinakikinggan, sa isip-isp ko pakonswelo de-bobo lang ito... syempre ang sarap yata ng maraming pera--lahat ng gustuhin mo pwede mong mabili, mapupuntahn mo lahat ng gusto  mong puntahan.. di naman ako mukhang pera pero lalo namang di ako ipokrita...sino bang matinong taong may ayaw sa pera??? lalo na kung sa kagaya kong kung hindi man eksakto eh kapos pa ang pang-araw-araw na allowance sa school...  kaya lang ewan ko ba..siguro ngayon medyo "enlightened" na ako sa usapang pera at kayamanan... nangyari kasi ito 3 days ago.. intern na kasi ako eh so nag-ra-rounds na kami sa hospital..it so happened na may patient akong may viral encephalitis (inflammation of the brain & spinal cord), sobrang rich ng girl na ito..bigay hilig talaga pero habang tini-treat ko siya hindi ko maiwasang hindi maawa kasi sobrang nakadepende siya sa ibang tao... ni hindi siya makapag-salita o kaya'y makakilos man lang... kung papipiliin ako between riches or health..syempre sa health ako..at least kahit ganitong mahirap lang ako nagagawa ko pa rin ang gusto ko ..pwede akong pumunta ng mall (kahit window shop lang masaya na ako), makipag-text sa mga kaibigan (kahit dahil sa pasaload lang ok na), mag-lakwatsa at kung anu-ano pa...... napag-isip-isip ko tuloy dami ko palang dapat ipagpasalamat sa Diyos (shucks! tagal ko na palang di nagsisimba)...  eye-opener talaga sa akin ito..... sana kayo rin matutong magpasalamat at pahalagahan ang lahat ng mga bagay na nasa inyo ngayon...(hanep! ako ba ito???)                 

Pero syempre..ok din yung maambunan ng kahit konting grasya man lang...sori po pero hindi ako ipokrita.. sana lang madinig ni Lord!

A friend once confessed that she has a hard time conforming to the so called "laws" of the Philippine society... She admitted that she's a lesbian but juz couldn't say it in the open...I couldn't blame her..It's already tough having identity/gender crisis not to mention having equally self-righteous, all-knowing, and "God-fearing" parents and to top it all....having to live in a very conservative place juz like the Philippines.....

Beneth, this poem is for you...hope you could find the courage you needed someday, somehow...

RAW

In a crowded room

In a smoky place

In a bar with no light

A man walks up to me and says,

"I love your eyes,"

and I ask him...

"What is there to love about my eyes?"

...that they have given

Earnest love to men

and complex love to women

that through them

he feels the grace

that God has lent me

because I am a woman..

And he tells me...

"I love women with beautiful eyes."

And I want to tell him,

"So do I."

That's me at the center (front most) with some of my friends in school... hope we'll be graduating soon...i juz can't write any poems right now..i'm too busy studying for the exams our professors are very fond of giving!!!!! @#$#$##%#$$$###@@@@@! but as soon as the semester's over i'll definitely go back to writing poems again......until then though...bye!!

Hey....hey...hey!!!!!!!!!! It's really good to be back... I missed my blog and of course my poems... I haven't written anything for nearly four months now. Whew! Schoolwork takes most of my time! But then I woke up today with an urge to visit xanga and type some of the words I've been trying to get out of my mind. So here goes...

DEVOLUTION OF MAN

Seek for food        

No hard feat

Close and kill

I eat meat.

Sleep in hole

Cat and bee

Out and go

I see me.

Seed sow fast

Plow and pant

Green sprouts grow

I eat plant.

Rain comes close

Claps of fright

Hit good earth

Red, warm light.

Two lips speak

I spill seed

In, then come

More to feed.

I see sphere

Sphere spots me

God, like sphere

God, like me.

In goes food

Grind in spit

Heat for work

Out goes shit.

Sphere sees all

Land, sea, buds

Light be way

Men praise gods.

Urge of flesh

I call whore

In, out, come

Me: one more.

Food runs out

We sense strife

Let us solve

Take a life.

Seek less one

I hear groan

Close and kill

One more, lone.

I, no use

Get most high

Rot on earth

When men die.

I am Man

Frail am I

Live on Earth

Bear, then die.